1/13/09
Yesterday I did a Little backsliding. It was a Bad day at work. It was my Friday. And my Crew didnt show up for work at all. And The GM didnt seem to think it was a big deal. But it was to me. So I Left work in somewhat of a Bad mood. And then I got home at about 1:30 p.m. and found I had No Power. My part of Town had a Power outage untill about 5:00 p.m. So I Had nothing to do all afternoon. I played my Guitar a little bit and read a few Chapters of The Pslams. But then when out side and tryed to find something to do. I met the Neighbor who lives on the other side of my back fence. He was trying to have fun by hitting a Golf Ball around His yard. So the next thing I know We got Brandy and Beer. And I end up Drinking agine after 14 days. I was very disapointed in my self for Drinking agine after 2 Good weeks. And as I took that first Drink I said to my self. (I guess I will Prove to my self one last time. This does not work.) And it did not. It was not a good night for me. I had planned to attend the Morning service this Morning. And was unable to of course. But I listend to it on the Radio. It was very nice. And now I'am listening to Jon and Ben doing the Morning show. So today is Day one for me once agine. Dan...

1/15/09
Good-Morning. It is a Cold Foggy day here at 3:45 a.m. This is my Third Day off this week. Allso my Third Day since I made the Stupid choice to Drink on Monday Night. That was a Stupid thing for me to do. I should have Turned to JESUS in my hour of need. Instead I turned to something that I knew would not work. And would only make my life worse. I was a Fool. I knew way better. And once agine I let the enemy talk me into it agine. I didnt make a Serious atempt to Stop Drinking untill late in 2007. When I found my way back to The LORD. Before that I spent many many years just Running Amuck. In and out of Trouble. Making a Huge mess of my life. So much more I could say there. But after finding The LORD agine I didnt want The Alcohol in my life anylonger. And I gave it up completely. Or so I thought. All of 2008 was a real struggle for me. trying to stay away from the Alcohol. And the enemy picked on me last year like no other. My life was still a big rat race. And last month I came to realize I need to be calling on JESUS at that time of Need. And when I do that the enemy will flee. And when I took that first drink on Monday night I realize what The Bible says is True. When you accept JESUS into your Heart. The old things past away. And you become a new Person. I found that to be very true Monday night. It was no longer fun, It tasted terrible, I didnt do anything constructive, I stayed up to late, didnt have a good dinner, didnt sleep well, woke up with a bad Headach, And most importantly. I didnt attend the Morning Worship Service I had intended to be at the next Day. Well satan beat me that day. he used my weakness for The Alochol to keep me from going to the place I want and need to be at. he kept me from being in Prayer and Praising our wonderfull LORD. JESUS CHRIST. Well today the enemy is NOT going to beat me. In just about one hour I will be driving up to The Fellowship. 14 miles in the Fog and hopefully NOT Icy roads. To spend that time with JESUS. Oh how I would be so lost with out HIM in my life. GOD BLESS. And look to JESUS. HE is The only Bottle I want to drink from now. Dan...

1/15/09 12:45 p.m.
I awoke at 3:00 a.m. this Morning to the sound of my Alarm going off. That is what time it would normally go off during my work week. But I honestly dont remember setting it last night. I didnt have to work today so how did my Alarm get set? I dont know. If it had not whent off I would have slept in and had no time to attend the Morning Service. From the time I was unexspectedly awakend this Morning. The LORD just kept touching my Heart. And put it upon me that I needed to be there at the Morning service at 6:30 a.m. I'am so very glad I listend to HIM and did drive up there this Morning. It was very special for me. It was one of those Rare times. I was so deep in Prayer and Connected with The LORD. I became for a few Minutes. Unaware of my Suroundings. Unaware of the People there in the Sanctuary. And even Unaware of the Music being played. It was Just The LORD and I. Talking and Talking. And HE Put on my Heart. That I have won this battle with the Alcohol. HE knows something that I dont know. And that gives me so much Hope. I know I can truly do it now. Thanks to JESUS CHRIST. My LORD. My SAVIOR. And My FREIND. I'am so thankfull HE took me to The Fellowship this Morning. And after the Service Ended I spent about 30 minutes in the Coffee shop. Then leaving the Coffee shop to go out to my Car. I Run into Pastor Ben in the Foyer. I wanted to Meet Him for a long time. So I just stoped Him and said. (hey Ben I'am Dan. nice to Meet you.) Somehow I think The LORD set up that little Brief Meeting. And If I had done things my way this Morning I would have slept in and missed it all. How often I wonder do each of us miss out on something the LORD wants to do for us. Because We want to have things our way? I think it happens alot. at least to me. GOD Bless untill next time Dan...

1/18/09
Good-Morning Sunday Morning here. 3:00 a.m. I have been awake since about 1:45 a.m. I whent to Bed pretty early last night. Didnt feel very good the last few days. I think I had one tomany cups of Coffee Thursday Morning up at the Fellowship. And then later on that day I had a few glasses of Soda Pop at home. And then when my Bedtime came around on Thursday Night. I could hardly go to sleep. But I feel really good today and feeling ready to go. Today is my Friday allready. Its a very short work week for me agine this week. And for the first time in the History of my work-place. My Department will be closing down at 1:00 p.m. today. And not open up agine untill Tuesday Morning. So I will be staying late today to Shut everything down. Today is my Sixth Day since I made that bad choice and Had Beer after work on Monday. I know in my Heart now. That part of my life has indeed past away. I proved that to my self last Monday. And GOD HIMSELF. Put it on my Heart at the last Morning Service I attended. That my Battle with the Bottle has finnally came to a End. Oh it was a Struggle. It was a Fight all last Year. But I just continued to Pray and to Pray And to talk to The LORD. and ask HIM to take this Struggle from Me. And it took some time. It was a BIG Struggle for me. But I never gave up. I knew HE would give me Victory over My Drinking Problem. JESUS Answered my Prayers for The New Year. And Now I'am a New Man starting this Year. Thank you JESUS for answering my Prayer. Amen...

1/27/09
Today is my 15th Day since I last Had Beer. I have just tied my longest record for no Alcohol That I set in 2008. The Next Record I need to Break is 25 Days. I set that one in 2005. I know I can do it with The LORD'S Help. I have truly been Bless by HIM. HE has been so good to me. Well every since I have been up this Morning. Since 3:15 a.m. I have been freezing cold. Just chilled to the Bone. I don't know why.? Its not any colder out side today then any other day in the last few weeks. I whent up to the Fellowship this Morning. I was so cold before I left the house I wore my big Leather Tour-master Motor Cycle Gloves while driving up there. And I was still cold. But once I got into the Church I was ok. And after the Service I spent about 30 minutes in the coffee shop. And it was my day to meet People. Met Pastor Web, Pastor Bryan, And A very Nice lady sitting there using Her Laptop. And Even was involved in a small conversation with Pastor Jon. But Honestly I really was not much into being there this Morning. Or the Conversations I had after the Service. I have been a little Depressed today. And since getting back home this Morning. I haven't done anything but just sit in my Big recliner and watch stupid things on TV. I Guess We all feel like this sometimes. GOD Bless. Dan...

2/3/09
Good-Morning. It is just before 7:00 a.m. here on a Tuesday. Morning. Normally I would be up in Ruch at the Morning Service at this time. But not today. I havent been feeling all that great the last few days. And I'am still a little down in the Dumps. And now my Car is making a funny sound from under the Hood. I think I know what it is. but it is beyond my Repair skills. So I need to take it in and have some work done on it soon. So untill I get that fixed I probably wont be taking the 14 mile trek on tuedays to The Fellowship. I wanted to listen to The Service this Morning. on the Radio but they have yet to begine Brodcasting it. I dont know what is going on.? Possibly they are having some Problem with it this Morning. Or mabe someone didnt hit the right switch. Or it could be they are not there today in the Sanctuary. for some reason.? I dont know. Its more then half over now. I was just going to keep listing to KAPL and see what happens at 7:30 a.m. And now for some strange reason my Internet is down. So I cant even check on line to see what I can fine. Well so much for that I guess. I dont really have anything to do today. I thought I might just stay home all day and take it easy. I dont even feel much like playing the Guitar today. For the past Month I have been playing around on Youtube making a few videos of Me playing the Guitar. And that is Fun but only to a Point. Oh and I allmost forgot to mention this. Today is my Twenty second day since I last Drank. I hardly even think about it anymore. It has been so long. And I have so learned to live with out it. I thank The LORD for taking that away from me. And giving me a New start. HE will do that for us. If we just ask HIM. And Beleve in HIM. Well untill Next time GOD Bless...

2/10/09
It is Tuesday Morning agine. I had a pretty good week at work. And now it is the beginning of my week-end. Today is my 29th Day since I last wasted my time Drinking. I'm so happy. A year ago this would have been impossible. I Tryed and Tryed. But could not go with out it for more then a week or more. But I kept Praying and Talking to The LORD about this. And now I'am completely sobber. and Alcohol Free for the last Month. It is true sometimes HE does not answer a Prayer right away. For Reasons only HE knows. But HE Promises to do what is best for us. So we need to just Trust HIM. And I'am so glad I didnt give up on my Dream of Being Alcohol Free. But it is still a Struggle and a fight for me sometimes. For Exsample Yesterday. I was at work. And its about 9:30 a.m. and suddently The HR Person comes to me and starts asking me a bunch of Questions about what I find Under lock and Key when I first come in at 4:30 a.m. I'm allways the first one there. Then she told me the Police had just contacted them and said they Picked up someone down town. And this Person had a Bunch of our Pay stubs on them. From my Department. So I had to be honest and tell Her those things are not kept locked up. they are just left laying around in the Office untill everyone picks theres up. And it all came down on me because I was the only one there. So as the day whent on The Enemy kept wispering in my Ear. (Man you have had a bad day Dan. And since you are not going up to The Church tomarrow. Why dont you just stop by the little store on your way home and Pick up something to drink. you are not going to have anything better to do. And you really deserve a Ice cold Beer on your friday night.) And I honestly considered doing just that. But I turned to The LORD instead. And the Next thing I know. I'am driving right past that little store. Just like I have every day for the past Month. With out JESUS in my Life. Man I would not beable to say NO to that little store.

2/18/09
Good-Morning. And it Truly is a Good-Morning for me. Wednesday. 4:00 a.m. Sitting Here in my Den. And just so Thankfull to The LORD for all the Wonderfull Blessings HE has given Me. So many Blessings HE has given Me. I can not even begine to count them all. The Big one for me is the Fact that I'am finnally Finnally Alcohol Free. I dont Drink any more. I have not had a Drink since 1/12/09. It has been 37 Days since I had my last Drink. It was completly impossible for me to even go half that Number of days before. But I did it. With The LORDS Help. I could NOT do it on my own. I tryed for so many years. And then in Late 2007 and all through 2008. I began to ask for The LORDS Help. And it took More then a Year. But HE did answer my Prayer. I Remember so many times sitting out there at the Morning Worship service. And just Praying and Praying that I would someday be completly Alcohol Free. It would have been so easy for me to just give up in the beginning when I didnt see Immediate results. And I guess I did kind of give up on my self. But HE kept draging me out there to The Service time and agine in 2008. And the enemy kept picking on me like no other. but I beat the enemy with The LORDS Help. So dont give up. Just keep talking to JESUS. HE will be there for us. I got the Proof. Well I'am officially on Vacation right now. I took 9 days off work. Yesterday I put my Car in the Shop. And hopfully will have it back in the next few days. I havent been up to the Morning Service in a Month. Simply because my Car has Problems and I was just afraid it would break down up there. But I will be back soon. Yesterday I listened to the Morning Service on the Radio. And was wishing I was there at that Moment. I heard them do one of my Favorite songs yesterday. (come see) I love that song. And Exspecially the Way The Girl singer does it at The Church. Just Beautifull Version of it. It sounds so good. I Remember about a Year ago here at my House. I was up early and listening to The Morning service. And very Hungover from drinking the night before. And suddently They start playing (come See) And as soon as I heard Carrie start to sing Her Part of the Song. I just broke down and began Crying and Crying. Because I knew I needed to be there at that Moment. Oh not to see the Singers or to be there to see them Preform it live. Oh its a wonderfull song and They do a great job of preforming it. But I need to be there to meet with The LORD. And I missed out on what ever HE had planned for me that day. I dont think I will ever forget that day. It was a Turning Point for me. And finnally a turn in the right Direction. GOD Bless your Day...

2/25/09
Today is my Last day of Vacation. I must return to work tomarrow. 4:30 a.m. It will be kind of nice to go back to work after 9 days. I know I probably wont be thinking like that tomarrow. I had a wonderfull 9 day vacation. Got a lot done. I spent $1.200.00 on my Car. And it is now in great shape. And I spent the last 4 days at The Fellowship. I attended the Sunday Morning service. It was the first time I have driven up there in a Month. And as I was sitting there at about 8:20 a.m. waiting for the day break service to begine. People were filing in left and right. The Sancuary began to fill up fast. And suddently I began to get very uncompfortable. Anxiety began to hit me. I just wanted to get out of there. And I allmost did. But no. I stuck it out. And a few minutes later. The singers took the stage. And Pastor Ben began to share in The word. And everything was just fine after that. And then Monday Morning I drove back up there to attend the Morning Worship service at 6:30 a.m. And sure enough. just as The music began. So did my Anxiety. I got attacked agine by the enemy. (who didnt want me to be there.) And it was even worse then the day before. So I took a quick look around the Sancuary and there were mabe 12 people there besides Billy Beckman playing the Guitar on stage. And I said to my self. There is no way the enemy is going to beat me like this. So I stayed put right where I was at. And with in a few Minutes. The anxiety was gone. Like it was never there. The very samething happend to me Tuesday Morning while I was sitting in the exact same place. I simply was NOT going to let the enemy win. So today I whent agine to The Morning Service. And The Service was more then half way over before I realized. I didnt get attacked today like the past 3 days. it was wonderfull. to defeat the enemy at his own game. We all can do that. If we call on The LORD in our time of need. GOD Bless. Dan...

3/4/09
1994. I was 33 years old. Probably the worst Year of my Life. On this date. way back in 1994. I was sitting in a Motel room in Cresent city California. (Drinking Heavily) Just trying to find a reason to go on with my life. I had just lost my Beloved Teri Delane a month before. And I could not find a reason to go on. I should have been turning to The LORD at that time. But I did not. I was angery with HIM. For taking Her away from me. So to try to make my self feel better I turned to Alcohol. And spent many many Years trying to drink my self to death. And finnally 13 years later. I did turn to the LORD. And After HIS working on Me for a solid Year. I'am now completly free from that terrible Prison of Alcohol. It has been 51 wonderfull days since I had my last Drink. I cant even remember what my Favorite Beer taste like. My Life is so good now. I could make a list of at least a Dozen things that HE has changed in my life in just the last few Months. Things I was not aware of before. But now am. So that is why I contiue to return to The Fellowship each week. That wonderfull place He found me at. That Place I went to when I was so broken and beaten down. And ready to give up. HE met me there and told me. it was not my time to come home. And now I go there each week. To just recharge my Batterys. And it works. If we just let HIM into our Hearts. I whent up to The Morning Service Tuesday. I woke up with a bad Head ach. But I whent anyway. I didnt stay for the whole service. I really needed to go home and got back to sleep for awhile. I felt pretty good today. And attended the Morning service. It was good. It snowed on the hill comming and going. Well I got to return to work tomarrow. 4:30 a.m. Things have been going pretty good there. I Personally have not lost any hours for the last 3 weeks. Well untill next time. Take care. and GOD Bless your day. Dan...

3/26/09
The End of March is allmost here. And I realize the last few Months have been just sailing by for Me. I think that is because my life is going so good now. I simply have nothing to complain about anymore. The LORD has Truly been Blessing me in so many ways. Today is my Seventy Third Day with out Alcohol. I could not Imagine a few Months ago that I would ever be able to go this far. But The LORD had a diffrent Idea. And Here I'am now. Blessed Be The Name of The LORD...

4/8/09
As the first week of April comes to a close. The Weather has been up and down. Nice for a few days. Then cold and raining the next. I didnt have a very good work week. A few things happend there. And it was a real Drag. And by time my Friday got here I was Ready. And I even remember at one point telling my self and a co-worker I was talking to. (it would be so nice to go home and relax with a nice cold Beer.) I DID NOT DO THAT. It was Tempting Yes. And it was the enemy telling me that. But I called on JESUS instead. And the enemy was suddently gone. Like the coward he is. Today is my 86th day with out Alcohol. And as long as I keep JESUS in my life. That Number will get bigger each day. Well Yesterday. was my first of two days off. I started it out by getting up early and going to The Morning Service at Applegate. It was good as usual. And after The Service I spent about 40 minutes in the Coffee shop talking to People and catching up on my Reading. Currently I'am in The Book of Psalms. And I think I had just a little to much Coffee there. Driving back to town. I was planning my Day out. Usually, Once I would be home. I would have something to eat. And most of the time take a short nap in my big compfortable Chair in The Den. While watching a Movie or what ever on The computer. But this time I could not fall asleep. So I got a bunch of things done out side. and a few other things. And during the day I was having some Soda Pop. I allmost never drink that stuff. But it sounded good yesterday. I ended up being so busy through out the day. It was very late by the time I had my dinner. And I stayed up to late as well. The caffine was still working on me. Didnt have a very good nights sleep. Woke up at 1:00 a.m. after just a few hours of sleep. Didnt feels so good as well. I stayed up for a little while. Fell asleep for about an Hour. While listening to one of Pastor Jon's Teachings. (I hope He is not reading this) And now I'am up agine. Didnt make it up to the Church this Morning. In fact I dont think I will even be leaving the House today. Just stay here and Relax today. I just Realize something. Today is April 8th. It was on this Day 15 years ago. That My life Began to go down the Drain. I had lost Teri. The Love of my Life. The only Girl I Had ever really loved. And on This Day. Later on in the Afternoon. I got The Sad News about Kurt Cobain of Nervana. Yes I used to Listen to Them. And I was Bumed about Him. I Remember sitting out in my Newly Rebuilt 1972 Chevelle. Later in the Evening. In The Garage. In The Dark. Feeling Bad. Drinking Beer. Listening to Nervana Cranked up on the Stereo. Just Bumed out with Life. And Mad at GOD for takeing Teri away from me a few Months before. My life just got worse and worse. I would not let GOD in my Life back then. And by 1999 I was Drinking every day. And Just hateing my self. But it had a good ending. By 2007 when I was about to take my own life by my own Hand. The LORD steped in and Said NO. You can NOT come Home yet. NO. The way HE made that Change in me. was simply by leading me to Applegate Fellowship early one Morning. And GOD used a Young Man there that Morning to make the Change in me. Seth Gilbert was that Young Man GOD Used that day. And I'am sure Seth has no Idea to this day. what was going On that early Morning I walked into the Sancuary. And we spoke those few short words to each other. Long before the Service was to begine. So for me Personally. I know The LORD is Real. And HE is there for us. Just Call on HIM. GOD Bless. Dan...

5/6/09
Good-Morning. Well sort of. I have a bad Head ach today. So its not really a very good-morning. Woke up with it during the Night. Tryed to sleep in this Morning hopeing it would go away. It didnt. And I could not sleep in either. It never seems to fail. My one day a week to sleep in. To not have to be awakened to the sound of a Blairing alarm clock at 3:00 a.m.. Today is more or less my Sabbath day. My day to just hang out at home. And do what ever I want. And today with a Pounding Head ach. Its been a month since I last updated this page. Just kind of forgot about it in the last few weeks. Now that the weather has gotten nicer. Just havenet been spending much time at home. But now we have had rain for the last week. Every thing has been going Pretty good for the last 4 weeks. Had a good time at Church yesterday Morning. I allways spend a little time after the service. In the coffee shop. Fellowshiping with some of the folks there. Probably had one cup of coffee tomany there. And mabe that is the reason for my Pounding Head this Morning. After driving back to town I stoped by Winco and bought some stuff to make my Stock pots today. I love cooking a big stock pot all day. Need to get that started by 9:00 a.m. this Morning. Today will Probably be the last time I make stock untill next winter. I rarely cook during the summer time. Mostly BBQ ing out in the back yard. This summer will be the first time in my History that I summer time BBQ with out Beer. It has been 114 Days since I last Drank. 4 Months. Wow. I simply could not imagine ever going this Far. It was imposible for me before. I could not stop drinking on my own. I could not do it. But Then I Brought The LORD into my life. And look at me now. Free from Alcohol for the last 4 Months. Praise The LORD. HE is so good to HIS Children. If We Just let HIM into our Hearts. I Cant Thanks HIM Enough for what HE has done for Me. Well untill Next time. GOD BLESS Your Day. Dan...

5/26/09
The last week of May is apon us. How this year is flying by for me. Quickly aproching that Five Month Moment since I last Drank. I have Completely over come my Addiction to Alcohol. Completely. The LORD Gave me Power over that. Its still my Choice if I ever drink agine. (I wont.) With Out HIM in my life. I could not say NO to that Garbage. Now I Can. Its so wonderfull to finnally be Free from that Addiction. Praise The LORD. I'am on my Days off now. My last work week was Pretty Bad. Huge amount of Problems at the work place. And Honestly I dont even want to go back through it now. Its over for The Next two days. Got a lot of things to do on my next two days. Going to start off the Day At The Church in Applegate in about 2 hours from now. A few weeks ago. After The Mornng Service. I was sitting in The coffee shop Reading. And suddently A Woman came up to me. And said. "Excuse Me. Didnt We go to School togather?" And I looked at Her and Had No Idea who She was. But After talking with Her for awhile. Yeah We did go to school togather. She Graduated In 1978. And Myself in 1979. So Funny. After 30 years She would still recignize Me. So today I'am going to take my 78 Year Book up there for Her to look at. I really look forward to My Tuesday Mornings at Applegate. Its my One day aweek to Re-Charge my Batteries. Re-intoduce my self to The LORD. Re-energize my Self. And to go to The LORD'S Table and Remember what HE has done For Me. And How Much HE Loves Me. And Wants Me to Be with HIM in Heaven. So Wonderfull HE is to Us. Well I did buy a New Laptop a few Days ago. Dell is Building it right Now. Its really not all that Exspensive. I have never had one before. I thought it was about time. It has way more Horse Power then anything I have right now. so that will be fun. Usefull anyway. Well that is about it for This addition of Dan's Life. So untill Next time Look to JESUS. HE is The WAY And The LIGHT. GOD BLESS your Day. Dan...

6/16/09
It seems like I can only find time to Update my Webpage about once a Month. And That is ok I Guess. Well for the last couple of weeks. I have been having Head aches about 3 times each week. dont know what is going on. However it is getting a little old. I have had my New Laptop now for about 3 weeks. Its cool. I still have this big HP sitting on my Big Redwood Desk Here in The Den. I dont use it to much anymore. But like today for Editing and a few other things I dont want to use the New Dell for. Well Had some bad news about a Week and a Half ago. I suddently lost a Cylinder in my car. (4 Cylinder Engine running on 3 Cylinders instead of all 4) So I took it out to my Car Repair man. it was bad Fuel Injectors. so $412.00 later it is now running good agine. So far this Year I have spent over $1.500.00 on the old Car. Well you Play you pay I guess. I did some lawn Mowing at Moms house today. I didnt realize just how Hot it was out side today untill I started doing that. Its close to 90% right now out side. And its about 4:00 p.m. I'am not going to go to work tomarrow. Just dont feel like it. One of the other Guys there would like some extra Hours. so that works for me. And tomarrow Morning I can go to one of those Rare Early Morning Services. On a thursday. I met a New Christain freind. Her Name is Cecile. She lives in The Philippines. But is hopeing to come here to live soon. That will be very nice. We me a week ago and have been exschanging email every sence. that is fun. Well untill next time God Bless. Dan...

6/30/09
The last day of June is Here. Wow. for me in my 49th Year. Time. Is just sailing by like never before. Its hard to beleve it has been 6-Months since I last had Beer. 6-Month. Even if I try really hard. I cant remember what my Favorite Beer tasted like. Am I sad about that.? No, I'am very happy I'am no longer a Prisoner of that Garbage. 6-Months late I'am much happer and healther then ever before. So that part of my life is gone. And Good-bye. Today is my Day off. It is just about 5:20 a.m. right now. getting ready to go up to the Fellowship for the Early Morning service. going to try to make a Video of part of the Car Trip (drive) up to Ruch. Dont know how that is going to come out or even how I'am going to do it. But I got to get started now. so I will continue this later today...

6/30/09-3:30 p.m.
Finnally I'am getting back to this. What a day. didnt get much done that I wanted to. But I was busy. Whent up to the Church for the Early Morning Service. It was good. Was a little late for it. I didnt realize how much Prep there would be in setting up the Cam in the car. So I stoped in Jacksonville to turn on the Laptop and get all that running for the Video. And I didnt realize just how hard it is to see the Screen when you are outside. But I got the cam started about a Half a Mile out if Jville. and ran it all the way to the Church. The Service was good as usual. But I didnt feel much like talking to anyone after the Service. So I avoided the Coffee shop area. Whent out side and walked around in the Amphtheater. Hadnt been out there for a long time. Very nice. And when I left the Church I drove up to applegate Lake. Agine Havent been there for a few Years. It was very nice. allmost no one there. And I had the Idea to make more videos. good Idea. but on the First Video I forgot to open the Lens cap and didnt know it for like 8 minutes. so then I made 2 more in 2 diffent places. And agine I could hardly see the Screen to see what I was doing. so. I didnt realize that both videos where ruining by to much sun lite. so It was a big waste of time. 4 videos and the only one that is any good is the short car trip from Jville to ruch. so I will up load that to youtube sometime tomarrow. by the way. if you are interested in seeing any of my Videos. my Username is wildfire050 I make thies type videos for my Friend Cecile in The Philippines. she likes to see what is happening here. Well anyway once I left the lake and headed back to town I stoped off at a Place call Mckee Bridge. I'am not sure If I spelled that right. It is about 4 miles down stream of the Dam. Wanted to stop there and grab some Breakfast. But nothing was open. And the whole place is kind of run down now. Sad. So once I did get home I had some Breakfast and ploped down in the big chair. and that is where I have been every since. I'am just worn out from my busy morning. So tomarrow I got a lot to do. I got to get caugh up agine before I retun to work Thursday. Lord be with You. bye. Dan...

8/12/09
To be very honest with my self. I have lost all interest in keeping this Webpage updated on a Regular basis. It has been a Month and a Half since I last was here. And this Morning It is a Struggle to even write this. But I Know I need to write here atleast once every 2 Months or so. Here goes. We are deep into our summer here. Less then one Month untill School starts agine. Work has been a real drag. Its our busy time. and we are trying to do it with very little emplyees. We are making it. But man. it sure has been difficult. I have been doing ok this summer. I have Problems with my Hip. do to an Injure I had back in 1982. Basicly. I will need a Hip Replacment. sometime in the Future. Becuase it is getting worse and worse over the years. So I got that to look forward to sometime soon I think. I have been on vacation for the last 9 days. Today is my last day. Going back to work tomarrow. This Morning I will be going up to The Church for one last Morning Service before returning to the salt Mine this time tomarrow. It has been a good Vacation. But as allways I feel like I should have gotten more done around the house. and didnt have enough fun or Relaxing. its allways like that. I have somehow managed to keep my $ spending down to just over $200.00 for the whole 9 days. So that is pretty nice. And to my Freind over seas. I'am so sorry things didnt work out for us. I realize now. I was not paying enough attention to what your needs where. and I'am so sorry for that. I hope you will find what you are truly looking for in this life. Good-bye and God Bless. Love allways. Dan...

9/15/09
Truly I have lost all interest in keeping up today with this Little Webpage of Mine. In the Beginning it was very interesting to do it. But now. Bahha. Oh well. I need to try to update it once a month at least. Really It Has been my own Personal Record of my life starting in late 07. and then I discoverd that other People were looking at it. Interesting. Well since my last update a lot has happend. some of it I have probably allready forgotten. So I will just simply say. Things are Pretty good. Life is going on as usual. Work is still steady. but now that the summer is just about over and it slows down. Who knows what will happen then. But Things are going ok. Still going to my Tuesday Morning at Applegate. Really Love and need that. Keep meeting a lot of new Pople up there. One in Peticular I met about a Month ago. This old Guy Named J.R. Had seen Him around up there off and on. He is a Really nice old Fellow. I have been giveing Him a Ride up to the Church on Tuesday Mornings for the last few weeks. Something happend to His car.? and as He and I live close by Each other in the same Part of town. Its Pretty easy for me to swing by and Pick Him up. He is pretty good with the old conversaion. So its nice to share a Ride with someone for the 14 mile trek though the Mountains of southern Oregon. Well looking at the old Clock on the wall. I got to go and get ready for my apointment at 8:00 a.m. so untill sometime next month. God-Bless your Day. Dan...

10/15/09
Good-Morning. Here I'am agine. One month later since my last Update. Presently I'am on Vacation for the Third time this year. I was kind of Forced to take this time off. Or I would possibly lose it at the end of the Year. I had kind of forgotten about how much Vacation time I get each year. I have been with the same company for 17 Years this comming January. So I Guess from now on I will be taking an Extra Vac each year. That is ok with me. The last week-end was our last big convention Week-end for the rest of the year. We wont have anything like that untill next summer. So now we go into the slow season. Mabe a few less hours a week for me. for awhile. But it will be fine. No matter what happens. I Know The LORD will take care of me in someway. Going to go up to the Fellowship for a Rare Thursday Morning service for me. I'am usually at work at this time of Day. And I will be attending a few other Services this week I normally would not be going to. Still Driving my Freind JR up to the Morning services each Tuesday Morning. I think He did get His Truck fixed. But I still offer to drive Him up there. No Problem. I'am very thankfull for Him. He truly is a Blessing in my life. He is someone who has been around the block like me and is still here to talk about it. Well untill the next time. May The LORD allways be with you. Dan...

10/21/09
Well I had a Great Vacation. And today is the Final Day. Infact it is the Final Hours of my 9 Days off. In Four Hours I need to be getting to sleep for the night. And then rise up Early in the A.m. And Head off to work agine. I really dont like going back to work after so long a time off. Its all most like I dont remember what to do. And I need to be retrained agine. Its not really that bad. Well a whole bunch of things I wanted to get done I didnt do. And there were somethings I didnt plan to do but did. I think I spent five days alltogather at my Church. And that was Great. And I only got to do one Little Trip with my New Freind JR on Friday. We had Planned about 5 little car Trips during my time off. And we got one done. that is all. So that is Pretty good I Guess. And I got a lot done around my Home. somethings I had not even planned on doing. And few things with my Mother. By the way my Mother is doing very good. Is still active and working part time. Her Hip she broke in 2008 is doing very good. But of course will never be the same. And I can say the samething about me. I have noticed How I have changed so much in the last Year. My old ways. All thouse things from my Past are gone. Dead. Its like It was never here. It has been over 10 months since I quit Drinking. And smoking Ciggarretts even longer then that. I never thought I would make it that far. it was just impossible a year ago. But thanks to The LORD. Here I'am Free of thouse things. HE has been so good to me this past Year. Allways look to JESUS. HE is Our light and Hope. Dan...

11/4/09
Good-Morning. We have had our New President now for one Year. I dont pay attention to what is going on in the Political world. Infact I really dont care what is happening. And all that stuff that so many People get so up set about and all that Junk. To Me. It does not matter. Its all working out the way it is Supposed to. On this Day last Year one of our former Emplyees Died from Cancer. Old Jay E. RIP old Buddy... Five days ago I discovered my High school 30 Year Gaduation Web page. I had no Idea that excisted. In looking it over I found my Name. And Clicked on it. It told me I'am considered Missing. So I filled out my Profile and added a Recent Pic of my self. And the next day I got a email from one of the Kids havent seen for 30 years. How cool. Come to find out this Gal Attends the Exact same Church Services That I do each Week. But we had no Idea about each other. all this time. How funny. This Week has been a little hard for me. Kind of down in the Dumps. Just dont feel right. Even though Everything is fine. I Guess we all feel like that at times. Dan...

11/7/09
I Forgot to mention something in my Last Update. I'am Planning to add a Photo Album to my Webpage soon. I hope by the End of The Year. However As I have no Idea how I'am going to do that. And I have not even began to trasfer the Pictures on to the Computer. It may not happen untill sometime after the First of the Year. I have a lot of old family Pictures and Photos involving me and other People and things and stuff. I would like to share some of it on here. You may have noticed my Little Website here is somewhat. Boring, Perhapes Lacking a lot of interesting things. I dont use anykind of Editer to make this Page. I do it from Scratch. Just using the Notepad. and Learing how to make the diffrent HTML Tags. Forms, Frames, Tables. All that interesting junk. So Please check back in a Month or two. or Three. or Fourteen. I will get in up and running sooner or later. Dan...

11/11/09
Howdy. Just a little Photo Album Update. I have been working on it a little bit each day. If I'am lucky each day I get about any Hour or so after dinner to work on it. The First 4 days was just going through box after box of stored Family Photos. the oldest dating back to about 1914. So I have selected about 150 for now. and I have Began to Transfer them to Computer Files using my new Digital Camara. Some of them I will have to take down and have them Professionally done I think. So its a long slow Prosess. And I havent even began to make the HTML Page that will become the Photo album. I'am hoping to have something uploaded to my Webpage by the end of this Month.? And there is going to Be another Problem as well. I'am sure I will not have enough Space on my Host. charter. Iam not sure how I will deal with that. I guess I will cross that Bridge when I come to it. Well God Bless your Day. Dan.

11/14/09
Another Quick little ol Photo Album update. I finally got my Selection of Pictures Transfered to Computer files. 211 of them. It took awhile. I'am pretty happy with the way they came out. When you look at them it is very aparent that It is simply Pictures of Pictures. I know it can be done much more Professionly. How ever I was so suprised at how Clear and good they came out. Infact when I look at them on my big flat Screen. I would swear they look Better then the original Pictures. I know that is not Possible. So for now I am going to just use theies. I have allso been going through my Html Book. and I have picked out a Design for the Photo album. Now that I get back into Html. Its not going to be as hard as I thought. Still going to run into that Problem with the free space charter gives me. But I should be able to get a few of the Pictures uploaded before that happens. I got an extra day off work this comming week. So Hopfully I can have the beginnings of the Album up and Running by thursday. Well take care. And look to JESUS. Our wonderfull Freind and Savior. HE is there waiting for Us to come to HIM. GOD Bless. Dan...

11/15/09
Hello. I woke Very Early this Morning. Like allmost 3 hours Early. could not go back to sleep. So just stayed up and got some work done on Building the HTML for the Photo Album. And Guess what? I got something put togather all ready. So HERE it is. I'am not sure if I will stick with this design or not. For now Its what I'am going to go with. I'am sure it will take no time at all before I run into the big Problem of "Not Enough Space" So lets find out. I will keep adding to the Photo Album untill Charter shuts me down. And then will go from there. May The LORD Bless Your Day. Dan...

11/16/09
It looks like that Problem of Space Might have found me allready. I uploaded 3 Pictures with Descriptions. And everything works ok. Except The Photos. They wont display at all.? Why.? I dont know. It works fine untill I upload them. Will keep working on it. Dan... 2:57 p.m. Ok I now know what happend. When I uploaded the Files to Charter early this morning. For some Stupid Reason. The ftp Program I use Renamed the Three .jpg files. And of course that will cause a big Problem. Strange it would do that. Anyway everything is fine now. Will keep adding Pics untill something eles goes Wrong. Dan...

11/17/09
Good-Morning. And what a Great Morning it is. Today is my Day off. Infact I will have Three days off this week. Really looking forward to that. Going to be going over and Picking up my good freind J.r in about 40 minutes. and He and I will be driving up to the Early Morning Service at Applegate. What a wonderfull way to begin the Day. I have been up since about 1:00 a.m. this Morning. Came in here to the Den and sat down here at my Desk. Began to continue the work on my New Webpage Photo Album. Its going Great now. Had a few little bugs to work out in the beginning. I remember when I first got this free space from Charter. I only had 3 MB of space to upload to. As of this Morning. I have 13 Pictures up loaded and I'am now way over 4 MB's. So Charter must have given me More free space to play with since then. Great. So I will just keep uploading untill they say No more space. Alltogather I have more then 160 MB of Pictures to add to the Album. I'am sure they wont give me that much free space. Will see. I will be back later today to Play more Photo Album fun and games. Take care and GOD Bless your day. Dan...Ohh. one last thing. Today is my 11th Month Since I quit Drinking. 311 Days. Wow. How good The LORD is to me. Dan...

11/24/09
Good-Day to all out there in Web-page-land. Whoever you are. I had a pretty good work week. it was only 4 days long. And now we are comming up on Thanksgiveing. Will be taking a bit more time off for that. Well I have been working when I can on The Photo Album. I got stoped cold a week ago at 20 MB. That is all Charter wants to give me. What the Heck its free. So I will move on to getting my own web page now. Infact I might just get started on that tomarrow Morning. Probably will be home all day just taking it easy. Currently I Just completed 1989 in Pictures. And I left off with 1983 on the website. So from 83 to 89 I have added a whole bunch of new Pictures. And got Tons more to go. So check back often. Hope you enjoy it. May The LORD Truly Bless your Day. Dan...

11/26/09
Happy Thanksgiving day. For me its just another day. I will go to work as usual. But of course I can not pass up all the Goodies later today. Thanksgiving day for me is Everyday. giving thanks to GOD. For giving us JESUS. with out JESUS I would be Nothing. Take my Newest Webpage Project for Example. Getting my own .com and creating this nice Picture Album. And all the things I talk about in there. The Cars. It might sound like I'am blowing my own Horn. It might sound like I'am saying ""OH I built this car my self. Look what I did."" Well I did do that. But I was not alone. JESUS is allway there with me. And Who gave me the Information. The Know How. The ability to do The Work. The Ability to Go out and get a Job and earn Money to do the things I like to do. And all that stuff. It all Came from the LORD. I could not have done any of this with out HIM in my Life. Thank you FATHER. YOU are so good to Us.
Well now that I got my own .com Its working out good. I have unlimited Space to Upload to. So that means I can put the Entire Photo Album on here Eventually. Its not done yet. I have Written HTML up to 1992. That means there is 18 more years to go after that. And I havent even gotten all the Pictures uploaded to 92 yet. so if you are looking at say 1990 and you dont see the Pictures to go along with What is Written below them. Its just simply that I have not yet got the Pictures there yet. Should be another few days or close to a week before I get caught up to 1992. So Stand by. Its a construction Zone. I did put a Link to the Photo Album on the top of the first page. Near the Archives. So Have a Happy Thanks giveing. And May GOD BLess your Day. Dan...

12/1/09
Good-Morning. What a Beautifull foggy, Cold, Dark, Early Morning it is here today. It is 1:30 a.m. And I just got up from a Fairly good-nights-sleep. And I'am ready to start my Day. IT was a Pretty good Work week. But it is over now. And my Two days off have arrived. I did get The Photo Album Done. Now I need to finish Up loading the rest of it to my New Host. I should have it completed in the Next two days. I hope. And then I will simply start over agine. Going through Box after Box of old Pictures I have stored Away in the Closet. And make another Selection of Pictures I want to add to the Album. And just start the whole prosses over agine. But for now I think I will take a vacation from Photo-Albuming for a little while. And start that Project mabe next week or so. Please while you are looking through what is allready there on the Album. You can email me about any spelling mistakes I have made. There should be about 42.789.526. But I just cant see them. In a few hours from now Going to drive up to the Fellowship for the Early Morning Service. I dont know if I need to go Pick up JR this morning I havent talked to Him since last Tuesday. I Guess He will call me if He needs a Ride.? Later on this month Or Next month As I begine to add New Pictures to The Photo Album I will Add a update Right here as to just what year I have added to. Take care allways. LORD Bless your Day...Dan..

12/11/09
Yesterday. While at work. I got the very sad News that all the workers in my Department. 12 of us. Are going to be layed off starting Wednesday Dec 16. That is only a few days from now. I just could not Beleve it. I allmost fell off my Chair. Its just Horrible News. right Before Christmast too. Here it is just 24 hours later and I still feel like I just woke up from a Bad Dream. Wow. Monday will be my last Day to work. I really dont know what to say. After 15 Years with the same company. And Now all of a Suddent. Phfffft...

12/15/09
Good--Morning..And it is a Good Morning. Yesterday. Was my Last day to work. I have been layed off I have no more Job. It will be official tomarrow. I will Pick up my last Check and say good-bye to everyone. And that is it. I'am trying not to be sad about this. I'am trying to keep very Positive about things. It sure is not easy. Today is My 339 Day since I last Drank...

12/17/09
Well here it is. My First official Day of being Unemployed. It sucks. I'am beginning to feel Depressed. This has never Happend to me before. I have never been unemployed. Except for a very short period between jobs once. And I Remember now. That felt pretty Bad. And Now here I'am Agine. I have a Wonderfull Church Family at my Early Morning Service I attend weekly. I will be attending more of those Now then I would normally. Those Guys & Gals really Rallyed around me on Tuesday. Praying for me. Laying on Hands. It may sound funny. But that is what I need Right now. It Truly does work. I know I need to be Carfull. with all this time on my hands now. The Desire to Drink will be there as well. there is some good News however. Yesterday I had to go down to my former work place and pick up my Finnal Check. And Decide If I wanted to continue with my Medical Insurance. (I do.) Before. My Medical cost me $105. a Month to maintain. Not to bad. But now to keep it and Maintain it on my own It would cost me $378. A Month. Ouch. That would be impossible. But Kathy told me Yesterday. she and the Corporate Office have came up with a Idea. Through a Goverment Medical Bail-out That I can keep and Maintain my Medical Insurance for just $130 A Month for the Next 18 Months. Wow. How cool. GOD is watching over me and taking care of me. HE is. What a Blessing. This may be a Bad situation that I'am now in. I know in my Heart The LORD is going to take care of me. And See Me Through this Tribulation...Thank you FATHER. I know YOU will allways be There for me. Dan...

12/20/09
I Sure was a very Stupid Idiot on Friday. I got Drunk. It was the First time in allmost one Year. Oh My oh My. It sounded like a good Idea at first. It Was the Going away Party for all the People including me that have lost there Jobs. Like I said It sounded like a good Idea at First. Ohhh I was never so badly Hung over Ever as I Was this time. What A Fool I was. I knew Way Better then to act like that. This Morning. (Sunday) Still feeling the Effects of Friday. I drove up to the Fellowship for the Sunday Morning Service. I have not been to one of them for a long time. Allways working before. I didnt stay very long. Just didnt feel good. And feeling very convicted about Friday. I know that is wrong. But I felt like everyone that knows me there. was looking at me Like They know what I did. No one there could possible know what happend on Friday. I havent told anyone. Not even my Freind JR. I dont want Him to know. He would chew me out but good. And Rightfully so. That was such a stupid thing for me to do. Drinking after all this time. It is good that I'am feeling so badly about it. That means I will really think twice before doing such a thing agine. I guess I let it happen because of my Job situation. The fact that I'am unemployed. Does bother me alot. I'am really letting it get to me. And I should not let it bother me. I could get along just fine with out a Job untill the summer time. 2010. Things will begine to get tight then. And when I do go back to work. Really I could get along just fine on a Part time job. I dont have any Bills to speak of. No Car Payment. Or any Payments of any kind on anything. Very little Credit Card Stuff. Just basicly Utilitys and what it cost me to live in a House each month. And keep a Car on the Road. But here I'am worring about things I dont have to worry about. Its the enemy doing that to me. Trying to get me up set over nothing. Personaly. I see this as a really wonderfull Opportunity to take my time. And look for a Job that is what The LORD has in Mind for me. I Know HE has a Plan for me. I Dont know what it is. But Through Prayer. And taking my time and carefully looking. And not Rushing into a Job I really dont want or I dont think is correct. I'am sure I can be place where The LORD Wants me. That is where I want to be. And I want to stay in the Food Industry Field. I have been in it so long. I dont know What eles I can do.
So anyway. I just dont have any reason to sit here and feel sorry for my self. like I have been for the last few days. After all. I lost my Job. Not my ability to walk, and Talk, and move around. And work, and drive my car, Go places. I have no Bussiness feeling bad about anything. And I REALLY have no Bussiness Drinking agine after an entire Year. You know What.? I was so convicted during my Friday Drinking time. From the time I began with that first Beer. Untill the point I dont remember anymore. All I could think about was JESUS. With every single Can I opened that day. I thought. WOW. JESUS Died for me Personally. JESUS did all that for me. And now Here I'am being a Stupid Idiot. I could not stop thinking About that. And that was a good thing. It tells me where I'am at. I just simply kept drinking more and more. And thinking to my self. "Ok. Pretty soon I'am going to start having fun Here. It will start soon." And I kept drinking and drinking trying to relive that fun time I used to know. It never happend. No matter how much I drank. I could not find any fun in it. AAAAAnnnndddddd Then a few Hours later when I woke up after just a few hours of sleep. The fun really began. Throwing up Repeatedly. untill about 3:30 p.m. Saturday. Oh that was Great. Just lovely. And then I kept thinking. If only my Freinds at The early Morning service could see me now. I Felt so much like I let all those Guys down. Oh I know None of them feel that way. But I sure was convicted about it.
So I'am going to spend a lot of time in Prayer. And hopfully by the end of the Holiday Season. (And that is Here right now.) GOD will give me a Answer. And I Pray that I will be led in a new Direction after the first of the Year. A New Job, A New Experience. What ever The LORD has planned for me. I'am ready to go there. Well GOD Bless your Day. Dan...

12/22/09
I'am probably going to be Writing a lot here in my Online Journal. At least untill the First of the year arrives. I never would have guest it. Christmast time 2009. Now Layed off my JOb of 15 Years. How Depressing this could Be. And it is Depressing for me. I Try to not allow that in my Life. But it is happening to me. The worst time for me is Late At Night. When I wake up after only an Hour or so of Sleep. And suddently I'am so Depressed. Absolute Hoplessness will come over me. Then it is Impossible to go back to sleep. Oh this really Sucks so much. Aaaauuuggghhhh. It really Sucks. sometimes I dont even want to Talk to The LORD. And sometimes when I do. It does not seem to Help. I just keep telling my self. I must go on. And everything will work out fine. It can be so hard to keep the Faith at times like this.
The one thing I Really look forward to is my time at the Morning Service at Church. Oh my Goodness. I need that. And you know sometimes it is so hard to drag my self up there so early in the A.m. Like today for instance. Today was my Regular Tuesday Morning at the Fellowship. I have been going every Tuesday Morning for a solid Year now. Tuesdays was my Regular Day off. And now every day is my Day off. I usually Pick up my Freind JR and we go up there togather on Tuesday Morning. Only today He didnt go. His Family is in town for the Holidays. Nice. Well, I really had a Hard time going this Morning. I really didnt want to. It would have been so easy to stay home. And after I left the House at 5:40 a.m. It began Snowing. By the time I reached Jacksonville. I had pretty much decided to Turn around there and head back home. But I didnt. I kept going. the road was ok. Got up there to the Church. feeling all depressed. Talked to Matt. The Security Guy I know from town. For a little bit. And then during the Service. I just took that Depression. And Sadness over the loss of my Job. And all that Junk I have been feeling for the last two weeks. And I Turned it to Praise And Worship. And Sang to our Wonderfull LORD. And by the end of the Service. Everything is Changed. And I feel good agine. I can face my Day. The way JESUS Teaches me. I know that losing my Job is not the end of the world. But sometimes it sure feels like it.
Four Days ago. Or I guess it is five now. I got Drunk for the first time in a Year. I dont know why.? I just did. And It didnt work. I feel the desire everyday to do that agine. Even knowing how sick I was a few days ago. It really appeals to me right now with all the Stuff going on right at the moment. I dont know why.? It sounds so good. There is Probably a really good Chance that I might end up drinking agine. Probably Chistmast Day.. That was allways the Tradition in our family. And Exspecially since I will be alone this Year on that day.?
Well I know I will be ok. I will be going up to the Early Morning Service on Christmast Eve. At least that is what Rick told me this morning. It will be in the Fellowship Hall. Looking forward to that.
Well since I dont work anymore. I have been doing some afternoon. After-Dinner walking around My Neighborhood. I leave the house here about 3:00 p.m. and take off walking North. I end up crossing over the Railroad Tracks Eventually. Exactly where they keep all the Big Southern Pacific Engines. I love those things. So cool. I want to take my New Digital Camara over there and Get some good Pictures of them. Sometimes there can be 6 or 8 Engines Parked there. I know its not very exciting to most. But it is to me. yesterday when I walked throught there I saw a Big Snow-Plow type Railroad engine Parked there. Would love See that in Action. So if It is still there today during my Walk I will take a few Pictures of it. for the Photo-Album.
Speaking of the old Photo Album. I just completely lost interest in doing that over the last few weeks. I did began once agine to go through the big boxes of Pictures. I just barely got started going through them agine when suddently this Job Lay-off Hit me right in the face. I have thought about it several times since then. I just cant seem to get it started agine. I will. I know I will get back to where I was. I will. Well untill the Next time. (and next time will be soon) May The LORD Bless Your Day. Dan...

12/24/09
Next time is here allready. At 11:30 p.m. On allmost Christmast Eve Morning. I Fell asleep last night sometime after 7:00 p.m. I'am trying to stay on my Early Morning Hours. I'am used to That. I very much liked the working 5:00 a.m. to 1:00 pm Shift. And I'am hoping very much to continue with that type of Schedual Once I do go back to work agine. But of course. Who Knows what I will be doing. Will have to adjust.
But this is very Typical for me now. To go to sleep at the Normal time in the evening and then be awake and up just a few hours later with no hope of going back to sleep. Something happens to me once I fall asleep. Terror, Panic, Hoplessness, Worry, My once Nice, wonderfull Peacfull Dreams are now filled with all that Junk. And Thus. (I Can't sleep.) Oh I know I Have been through many things like this in my Life. I just dont remember It being so bad. I think the enemy sees this as a wonderfull Opportunity to take Me away from JESUS CHRIST. To Make me stop beleveing in JESUS. I Laugh at the enemy. Nothing is going to do that.
I'am still dealing with the Paper work and getting the finnally Pay Checks from the Corporate office. Most of that is finnally done. One last thing to do before the end of the Year Hopfully. Is to get My Medical Insurance done. It had to be canceled. I had to be Reinbursed for the time I was not covered. And then it had to be restarted. I'am very fortunate that I will be able to continue with the same Insurance I have had for the last few Years. I will of course have to pay the entire Premium. How much I dont know.? Still waiting here for the Paperwork to arrive in my Mail Box. And of Course I have filed for Unemployment Benifits. I have never ever done that before. So Guess it is about time. And IT will probably be after the first of the Year before I know if I will be getting that or be Turned down. That of course is a "HUGE" Part of my Late night Worry time. I know I will be ok. JESUS Tells me That. But still I cant help but worry.
I havent even began to look for a Job Yet. It does not seem to make any sence to look right now. I keep telling my self. "self... As soon as the The New Year begins it is time to get out there and start pounding the pavement." And that seems to make sence to me. I have not began to make out a Resume Yet. Infact I dont even remember how to make one. Its been so Long. But I got a lot of Good Stuff to Put on it. Infact Dan. Lets take a Quick Trip Back to the Past. And see Just how. Wonderfully The LORD has Blessed me.

12/27/09
I have been Extremely Lazy for the last 3-Days. I Guess I deserve to be. I dont know. I Behaved very Poorly. Drinking agine. I know way Better then to do that kind of Junk. Well More about that later. I have been haveing a lot of Trouble with this Paper work. The Unemployment, The Medical Insurance, Tomarrow will be 2-Weeks since I last worked. And I still dont have Unemployemnt going yet. I have made some big mistakes in the last two weeks. First of all. I was under The Impression That I had to wait untill I got My Severance Pay before I could file for Unemployment. WRONG. I wasted a whole Week waiting for that to happen. I filed for unemployment last Monday. And the Severance Pay was late being filed. That was out of my Hands. I finnaly did get that check right before Christmast. And then yesterday I got a letter in the Regular Mail from the Unemployment People saying that they can not Processes my Claim untill I Regester for the iMatchSkills Program. That is something new this year with the Obama Administration. My Mistake. I should have known that. Ok so now I have lost another week. And now that I have done that. I just now figured out that I did not Claim my first week of Unemployment. That Needed to be done at the same time of the iMatchSkills Regestration. And Now there is a 7-Day waiting Period. untill I will get any Benifits. In fact at this Point I dont even know if I will be Approved or Denied Unemployment. AAAUUUGGGGHHHHH. What next.? So in other words. Because I didnt get on the Ball in the beginning. And figure this stuff out correctly. I'am now going to be about 3-Weeks behind in collecting any Unemployment. Please tell me to stop being a Big-Cry Baby. Because things could easly be a whole lot worse. I know that to be True. I guess I just need to Vent right at the Moment. sorry. Dan...

12/28/09
Good-Morning. Last night was another Bad night of Sleep. Or the lack of it I should say. It was (SOP) - (Standard Operating Procedure) for my Good-Nights sleep in the last two weeks. Fall asleep for one or two Hours. then. be up the rest of the night with worry. I hate it. Well this Morning I planned a early Morning shopping Trip to Winco. My Favorite Place to shop. Accually it would be a nice place to work too. I decided to stop by the old work place on my way to the store. This was 5:00 a.m. Normally I would be going to work at this time. And I knew someone would be there at 5:00 a.m. The Buffett Food needs to be out and ready by 6:00 a.m. And that is really the only thing I know about this New Situation they have there now. My old Job was eliminated two weeks ago. Well one of the Gals who I never really got along with very well was there This Morning trying to get this New Buffett ready for 6:00 a.m. She was telling me all about how this works. Or how it is not working. She was Pretty up set with what has been happening to the old work place. Infact she even started to Cry at one point. Simply because she and everyone eles according to Her is so unhappy. And I can very much understand where She is comming from. It is really a Mess there now.
It did make me feel good in a way. I now know I did make the right decision in accepting the Lay-off. I do feel better about that now. However I feel very badly about my former Co-Workers. And what they must go through. It is very Clear to Me and to Them. The Bussiness is in Trouble. And sometime in 2010 Could be the end of the Place alltogather. I dont know.? I should not even be thinking like that. But anyway. I'am out of there. And will be looking forward to What The LORD Has instore for me with the beginning of this New Year.? I'am excited to find out. But it is Scarry too. Dan...

12/29/09
Good-Morning-Agine-So-Soon. Well I'am up at my usuall time agine. Its now 3:39 a.m. Agine another night of worry instead of Sleep. I Guess I must get enough sleep each night.? Last night my Worry was not about me. But about my Former Co-Workers who are having such a Hard time. They all had the same opportunity to be layed-Off the same time I was. 4 Including me took the Lay-Off. All the Rest are still there Struggling with there new Jobs. And the Lack of Hours. When I was there Yesterday I looked at the Weekly Schedule that I would have been on. Everyone that is there on that Schedule has only ONE Day of work this week. Today is the Middle of the week. Allmost. So I would really be hurting if I was still there. Right Along with everyone eles. Oh I would be able to still claim Unemployemnt I Guess. Somewhat. By the Way. I still do not know If I will be getting Benifits Or Not. All that Stuff is still being Processed. If I had not made all those Mistakes in the Beginning. I would be haveing less worry right now. Oh well. Hopfully today I will know.?
I did a lot of walking yesterday. Some of it very Early in the Morning. And my Usuall After-Dinner Walk. I have a Regular Walking Path I take each day. I end up going through the area where All the Big Locamotive Train Engines are Kept. I Love the Southern Pacific Trains we have here. So Each day I go on my Afternoon Walk I take my Digital Camara with me. In Hopes of finding a Bunch of the trains there and Hopfully working the Tracks at that time. So far I have not really found anything to exciting. I have been up loading them to my Youtube account. Sooner or later I will find something big going on there.Click Here to see my YouTube Stuff.Like I said. Its not very Exciting. But it gives me something to do late in the afternoons.
Today it is pretty cold out side agine. Going to be going up to the Early Morning Worship service in about an hour from now. I will be swinging by and pick up my Freind JR. That will be a Great way to start off my Day. Probably will be having one more update here on this page. Hopfully with good news about my Unemployment Claim. And then this will be moved to The Archives. It seems so hard to beleve that 2009 is just about over. It was a really good year for me despite what has happend in the last few weeks. The way I see it. GOD has big plans for Me in 2010 And Way beyond what I can see. GOD Bless Your Day. Dan...

12/30/09
Just two more days togo untill 2009 is in the History Books. Yesterday was a really good day for me. I was gone from home most all the day. Whent up to Church with JR. Had a Great time there At the Morning Service. And afterwards fellowshiping with my Good-Christian-Freinds. It was Very nice indeed. Driving back to town later on. JR and I stoped in Jacksonville for several Hours. We started walking on the Jacksonville Woodland Trail System. These Trails are still a Work in Progress. They go through the old Mining areas of Jacksonville. It was Extremely Cold and Frozen. The clouds had moved in and Snow was Predicted for later in the Day. So We started walking on these Trails in the cold. And just kept going & going & going. It was really fun. We both had a good time. We walked Several Miles.
We found a Place I had been to many times before. And on top of the Hill there. I noticed a Great Big Tree. A Very large Madron. And the Shape of this Tree would make a Perfect Place to Build a Tree House. Just the way the Tree formed over the Years. It would be Perfect for a big Tree-House. Well JR and I were thinking back to When we were Kids. And How much fun it would have been to build a Tree House back then. I'am talking like 40 Years ago. Anyway. He & I named the Place yesterday. Tree-House-Hill. And soon We are going to take another Hike up to the top of our Newly Named Tree-House-Hill with the Digital Camara and take some Pictures and even a Video for YouTube. Mabe make a Challange to other Medford Dwellers to Find our Little-Tree-House-Hill. Should be fun.
After Hikeing back down to the Car. It was time to go Eat. We whent to the Mustard-Seed there in Jacksonville. A Nice little Resturant that has been around since I was a little-Boy growing up in Jacksonville. It was a Really good Fun Day. It began Snowing shortly after comming down off the Mountain. And continued on the rest of the afternoon. But like allways. Snow just does not stick around here in Medford very long.
Once I got home in the afternoon. I discovered I had Heard from the Unemployment People. I'am going to get Benifits Starting in the first week of January. But of Course. I will not be getting anywhere Near what I was Making before. It will be Quite a bit less. I knew that of Course. It is kind of Depressing. It will be very hard to make it now. I will have to be very Carefull. And If I watch my Spending very Carfully. I will make it on what they will give me. Just Barely. But I can make do with that. Unfortunatly I will have to give up somethings. I'am afraid my Medical Insurance will be one of the Things that will have to go away.? Oh My Goodness. So Much to think about in the Next few Days and weeks to come. Well nothing has to be decided untill well after January 2010. I will of Course be looking for a Job after the New Year. And Hopfully not Have to make any big Changes. But If I dont find work for sometime. Then Well. I might have to give up some things. Well will see how January starts out.
So for the Next few Days I'am just going to take some time off from all this junk. And begine to Deal with it after the First of january. I know The LORD will Provide for me in someway. I know I will be ok. Well I hope everyone will have a good New Year. untill then. GOD Bless. Dan...

Go Home